thoughts

if i wasn't like this would i have a different life?

most likely...

but for some reason i want to stay this way.

it's probably stupid and childish for others

but this is who i am

i haven't done anything shameful

i have tried so hard not to feel this way

but i have to go

i feel guilty leaving you behind

but if i stay i know it'll just get worst.

i'm not running away

sometimes you just have to retreat to fight another day.

kilala nyo kung sino kayo....

naiinis ako, naiiyak ako. tinagalan nyo na nga kami ng nanay binuwag nyo pa kami. pati yung pag-asa ko tinanggal nyo pa. at hindi pa kayo na kuntento, binawi nyo na naman ang salita nyo. mga walang isang salita. MGA SINUNGALING!! at ano susunod iiwan nyo na lang kami sa kangkungan? ndi ko alam pero para lang kayong mga gagu! pinag-isipan nyo ba toh? gusto nyo na ba talaga masira? sana tinanggal nyo na lang kami. torture! alam nyo yun! ndi ko maintindihan kung saan yung business point of view dito? business major ako of course i know. bwiset talaga kayo. kung kelan tanggap na namin yung mapupuntahan namin binago nyo na naman. wala na talaga akong pinaniniwalaan sa mga sinasabi nyo. wala akong pake kung sa kayo nagtapos at kung magkano kinikita nyo dahil napagtanto ko na hindi kayo karapatdapat bigyan ng tiwala. sana talaga tinanggal nyo na lang kami. hindi ganitong pinapaikot ikot nyo kami. at wag nyo kami masisi-sisi sa mga susunod na mangyayari. kayo guwa ng decisyon na nagpagulo sa sitwasyon, kayo din umayos nyan! matatanda na kayo, alam nyo na dapat responsibilidad nyo. kumilos naman kayo. wag nyo kaming tratuhin na parang laruan. nakakasakit na kayo ng tao. sobra na yung pinaggagagawa nyo samin. hindi pa ba sapat yun. kung hindi nyo kaya yung responsibildad nyo bilang nakakataas edi umalis kayo dyan ng mapalitan kayo ng tao may malasakit sa kapwa nya. pare-pareho lang tayong tao. ang pag-kakaiba lang natin ginagago nyo kami habang nakatalikod. nakakailang atraso na kayo samin. kelan nyo ba kami balak patahimikin. umayos naman kayo oh. mga tao kami. may mga buhay kami na ndi lang sa inyo umiikot kahit sabihn nyo pang binabayaran nyo kami. lecheng dahilan yon! kung ganyan kayo kababaw magsama-sama kayong mga gago!

ano ba talaga?

ano kayang balak nila??



wala pa rin ba talaga kaming schedule for next week??




bwisit! ndi tuloy ako makaplano ng lakad!

goodluck sa akin!

sana palarin ako! kasi kahit mas mababa sila magpasweldo mas maluwag at mas makakahinga naman ako ng maayos sa kanila! muka ring fix ang off! kaya ko naman talaga yung oras, yung higpit sa bawat minuto na hindi ka na makahinga, yun ang kinababaliw ko! ayoko namang bigla na lang magbreak down! wala akong sinisisi, alam ko yung pinasok ko. kaya nga ako din yung humahanap ng paraan para malampasan ko toh! kaya ko toh! aja! fighting! sana talaga payagan ni Lord!

What If

Before you continue in reading it's best to play What If (below) so you can feel it! Bawal mag-bash, namiss ko na magsulat ng script eh! hahaha!!

What If - 슈퍼 주니어 (Super Junior)


Camille: Hey Jake! Can you come with me? I need to get something from the market.

Jake: (sighs) I... (looks down) I'm busy! (turns away)

Camille: Busy? (grabs Jake's shoulder) I heard you just finished your chores! (pout and raise an eyebrow)

Jake: (looks at Camille calmly) How can you be like this? (shakes his head from left to right)

Camille: (hits Jake's arm) What kind of friend are you? (hits Jake's arm again)

Jake: (looks down on the floor) I need to do something.

Camille: (holds Jake's face and force him to look at her) So there is something more important than me huh? (stare directly to Jake's eyes)

Jake: (release from Camille's hands and turns his back and then faced Camille) Look! Your the most important person in mylife Camille! My world is basically just revolving around you! (stare directly at Camille) And I'm happy to have it this way! (looks down) I'm willing to wait, but I've waited long enough to know that this is hopeless. (looks again at Camille)

Camille: (stares back) I... I didn't know.

Jake: (sarcastically laugh) You don't know? (sarcastically laugh) Or you just don't give a damn! You just don't feel the same way. And I'm tired! I'm tired of loving someone I know who will never feel the same way!

Camille: Jake! Please... (Jakes interrupts)

Jake: (raise his hand to silence Camille) You don't have to pity me Camille. I'm already in pain and I don't need you sympathy. You know what I want, what I need. (jake walks away)

Camille: Jake! Please hear me out. (shouts) Jake!

"I need to let go of you or I'll just be a burden to you in the end and I can't blame anybody for thei sufferings but myself... Forgive me my friend, I shouldn't have fallen in love with you..."

- Jake