i'm sorry. i guess my heart hasn't fully healed after all. i totally feel guilty not for leaving you but for realising that i don't love you anymore. it feels so painful because i know i failed. i failed at love. after all my good advices to my friends i failed at my own relationship. i didn't cheated yet i feel so desperate. i just really fell out of love. basically i consoled my self by thinking that what i did was still for you. but i guess i was selfish. i couldn't sacrife my life for you anymore. i'm sorry. and i know it's not enough. it's allmost 11 months since i broke up with you yet i haven't forgotten anything. i don't love you anymore yet i still care. but i don't even have the guts to see you. yes i'm a coward. i thought that when i decided to broke it off with you was the bravest thing i did. maybe you don't notice but i hate confrontation. maybe you really don't cause i would always force you to tell me what's wrong. but the break up just meant i quit. i quit at loving you. and it's hard for me to quit. you're not an addiction but the comfort of knowing i won't be physically alone seems tempting. still my heart and mind were so sure that i no longer feel the same about you.
i'm not confuse. i still believe that what i did was right. and i did failed myself. i pretend long enough that i lost myself. the truth behind my move was i'm sicked and tired of knowing that i would be stuck to nothingness. i'm sorry if i'm ambitious or goal oriented. you should have seen it. you know how much belief people put in me. and it didn't help when you put your own pressures on me. i wanted someone who would be there for me when i'm tired saving others. someone who can stand by my side and fight for me. not someone who consumes my energy. i'm burdened yet you seem so oblivious of what you're doing to me. i'm sorry. i no longer love you the same still i thank for the memories and the lessons learned. live well your life. maybe i was just another stranger passing by your life to show you the right way. same goes for you. i'm sorry and thank you again.
i'm not confuse. i still believe that what i did was right. and i did failed myself. i pretend long enough that i lost myself. the truth behind my move was i'm sicked and tired of knowing that i would be stuck to nothingness. i'm sorry if i'm ambitious or goal oriented. you should have seen it. you know how much belief people put in me. and it didn't help when you put your own pressures on me. i wanted someone who would be there for me when i'm tired saving others. someone who can stand by my side and fight for me. not someone who consumes my energy. i'm burdened yet you seem so oblivious of what you're doing to me. i'm sorry. i no longer love you the same still i thank for the memories and the lessons learned. live well your life. maybe i was just another stranger passing by your life to show you the right way. same goes for you. i'm sorry and thank you again.
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